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Leap. Love, Be Grateful, and Just Leap.

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*Today is my Daddy’s birthday.*

Yesterday I explained.  A lot.

And today, I leap.

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Actually, I leapt two weeks ago, when I finished writing everything my heart has experienced, culminating to this point.

For over two and a half years, this blog has been my art.  A long, sorrowful art into the longing and fears of a woman, a marriage, a little girl inside.

This piece is incomplete, but my Mom – an artist – always said no artwork is ever complete.

Wait.  That may have been Leonardo.  All the same in my heart.

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I started this blog to give you answers, Sweet Girl, who just got your own heart-wrenching phone call.

I am so sorry you feel this crushing pain that I and too many others have felt.

I am sorry, too, that I cannot tell you how to cure your ache and hold your child, despite the malice and coldness the doctors spew upon you.

I now accept I cannot have the answers for you.  But when the day comes that I can share my happy “ending” with you, I will.  I will share with you that I am holding our child, that the stories of hope come true, and that you just have to listen to the expert within you to find your own “ending”.

Ultimately, however, this blog is finished.  I have moved on to new art.

Until I come by here to share that happy new addition with you, know that Fertility Pickle will stay up indefinitely, for you, who need to know someone else has been here.  Start at the beginning, work your way through.  Take the time you need.  Know, however, that after this week, I will no longer reply to comments, though you are free to leave them.

Email me, if you need.  I am still “here”, and I can be a friend.

If you want to talk to me about things outside of ovaries, tweet me at @AshleySue.

Visit me at Ashley Sue and House of Matador (and “like” my work here on Facebook), where the new leap in my life will be partly chronicled.  One of those is a long neglected “art”, and the other is just starting and under construction, so if you visit in 2013, please pardon the state they are currently in.

Nope, no posts on my fertility or adoption paths.  No posts to be heard.  Just art.  The art of life.  The art of a woman’s heart.  The art of questions.  No need to share every detail, every fear, every period.  Not anymore.

Just love, life and art.

Subscribe to this blog (see the sidebar) to be emailed that tremendously joyful post when I do share the “finale”.  Just know, it will be a while.  No worries about being overwhelmed with emails.  As Ronco would say, “Set it, and forget it!”

Am I giving up on my fertility, my health, and my dreams?

No.  Quite the contrary.

That is exactly why this blog has. to. stop.

#IfOnly I had a friend to help me take this leap…

*Oh.  I do.  Thank you.*

And so, I leap.

Happy birthday, Daddy.
Happy Anniversary, Sancho our Rainbow Cat.
Happy Leap Day, Me.

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With love and prayers for each of you, deeply,

and gratitude for every single word you have read, every single feeling you have shared, every single moment with you previously and ahead of us ~

let us not let it end.  Yes, it will just change into a deeper friendship with a new connection ~

leap with me,

Ashley Sue Bullers

From my Pinterest board...

From my Pinterest board…

From my Pinterest board...


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